random marrage thoughts

we tested cakes today. it was unlike anythng i had done before. simply because i was expecting a few bites for each cake tyype, but we ended up getting a small cake for each flavor.
after Cait left i went to UPS and picked up my wedding band.
I riped my vail a little trying to get the tags off, i will have to glue it back together i think.

Sometimes getting married scares me. I haven't really dated around. Not that there are many guys i would like to share slobber with, not counting movie stars. but i still feel like such a little kid sometimes. i just feel like i should be more of an adult. having a real job, just feeling more confident in everything. i still feel like i don't know anything. and while i technically have college qualifications, i still don't know what to do with them.
maybe it would be different if dave and i were still living together, not just seeing each other once a month or so.