rethought

after thinking it over before i layed down for a nap, i don't think i'm physically attracted to Brad. i just like being able to flirt around with and have fun with a guy. that is what orgionally attracted me to Goebel and Dave.
speaking of Dave, we never flirt anymore. i guess that is what happens when you move in and the mystery is gone. and he is so busy and grumpy anymore, i do my best to not even bother him. I don't question our relationship though. someone once told me that when one person is getting they PhD is the hardest part of any relationship. god were they right.

about Brad ...

I think Brad might become a problem in the future. I'm not going to leave Dave for him, but if i will be spending the next two years slightly flirting with him, my mind will want me to stray. it will be one hell of a test on me. though i'm sure i will be able to pass it.

i made the mistake of telling Dave that i bought myself the new Josh Groban CD. he asked if i couldn't just get if off the web. i asked him when the last time i bought something for myself. but then i realized that i had just got myself a new pair of gym shoes on monday. but still. oh, and i got myself a salad from Arby's yesterday. and he has more than once complained he thinks thier food is too expensive, yet never offers to go to kroger with me.

i just made me feel like crap, even after i had a somewhat good day.

that's my boy. I'm really proud of him.
:o)