he really does love me right? i mean, not just for my green-card-getting abilities. he says he does. he has shown it to me for what, two years now.
i just don't know if i can tell my parents about us getting married, least not till we do it the right way, more than just a judge and his roommate as a witness.

"lips of an Angel"

everytime i hear "lips of an Angel" i think about goebel. i'm sure he doesn't know how much i still think about him, and he probably never will.
part of me still does wish it would have worked about between us. he really is a great guy, and he has finally found some direction in his life. i know he would have always treated me right. he just isn't the right one for me.
did i just write that to tell you, or am i trying to convince myself? to be honest, i don't know.

I know that Dave is busy. He is writing away and it is frustrating him and he is getting mad at the whole thing. But he goes out with Imran from a drink; would it really kill him for us to go somewhere that I want to go, so I can a nice girly-drink?? A girl needs a daiquiri every now and then!! And sex would be nice too

I think i'm starting to flirt around with Brad too much. He is a great guy, a possiblity if Dave wasn't around, but at this rate i'm only going to get myself into trouble.
But how do I not flirt with the guys that I work with. It would be easier for me to part the Red Sea.

sleeping alone

Dave has been gone for three nights now. I do miss him, even knowing he will be back on saturday. And I hate to say it, but I think I prefer sleeping alone. Not sex, you need someone else for that. But the actual act of sleeping is easier if he isn't there. I don't have to worry that i'm stealing his covers and subsequently waking myself in the night to recover him. I don't have to worry about having too many blankets on the bed for him to be to hot. and I don't have to worry about cuddling up next to him.
Don't get me wrong, I love to cuddle. And who doesn't want a boy that loves to hold them, but sometimes I just want to sleep because I have to teach the next morning, and he doesn't really understand that and I feel obliged to cuddle, when I really want to do is sleep.

just a random thought I wanted to share.

All of my education classes and assignments are systematically trying to kill me. I’m convinced of it. I keep telling myself that next week will be better. Or just once I get all my lesson plans done, it will be better. But i'm not even believing that lie anymore.

I might get to student teach with the person that inspired me to go into education next semester. I pray that I get that chance. I really think it would be beneficial for my future career.

Pure Nerd 56 % Nerd, 43% Geek, 30% Dork

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